Martin Perestroika

My story with the name Martin is about one of my last relationship I had with a man. After I decided to take antidepressants and it kills any interest in it. I was about to finish my Dance education at HfMT Cologne and felt immense stress. Somehow, I had to mentally work out my trauma with HIV and Aids. In the time I dated Martin, I started to watch the series Angels in America from Tony Kushner. I was really inspired by the dialog between Joe and Luis at the beach in part 2: Perestroika, Chapter 5: Beyond Nelly. The sentence of the love scene were also in my final dance I needed to choreograph for my diploma. It was a Solo about the series where in the end I stripped off my cloths and laid the cloth as my body on the floor. It was supposed to look Like a molting snake, and I used the image as a metaphor of painful change and progress. Martin and I had the habit of coming into each other's apartment and clean things up. Once I cleaned his kitchen and there was a strange object hanging from the top which looked like a fly trap. I ripped it off and asked him what it was, and he became furious. He told me that it was the molt shell of his snake he used to have. It made me laugh because the spot in the dirty student kitchen was very bizarre. Martin and I were heavily competing when it came to grades in university. Since he was studying international law, he spent a lot of time in the library.  When I called him there, he always changed his voice because he did not want his colleagues to know that he had a gay relationship. It seemed very double faced and surprising because it was the first relationship where I felt a friendship at eye level. What is your story with painful progress, change and the name Martin.