Petra System

My story with the name Petra is dedicated to the daughter of the equestrian Karla Spiritus. Her husband Thomas Spiritus was my fathers' lawyer.
Petra and I hang out around horse stables all the time. One time we were hanging out at her mother's stable called Gut Landfrieden in Knittkuhl, Düsseldorf. Her mother Karla promised us to get to ride her horse. Instead, Karla was riding the horses and I had to sit backwards in front of Karla, on the horse's neck and grape her waist. I did not like it at all and when I came home I felt borderline emptiness the first time in my life. On this day, I also was confronted the first time with the GDR. Petra and I were watching the equestrians, and she showed me a woman who escaped the GDR.

She told me all this horror stories about the woman who came with absolutely nothing and had to get alms from the Spiritus family.  Petra worked as a social worker with troubled teenager girls later on. Her mother Karla is also the escape goat for my mother. When we were young, my mother fled to Karla when she had enough of us. After a few days she came back, and It was creating a lot of guilt and was traumatic being left alone. When my aunt Susanne wanted an apartment from my mother, she sold on to Karla. A few years I threatened Petra to come to Düsseldorf, visit her because I thought she got the apartment. Since Petra has a kid now, she became very scared. When I indeed went to her and made pictures of her house, it seemed like the neighbors had already been informed. They came out and jelled at me. What is your story with being confronted with a threatening system the first time and the name Petra?