Julia Frequency

My story with the name Julia is dedicated to Julia Scharf. She used to vault with me and is now a sports commentator for ARD state TV. When Julia and I met we were like Romeo and Julia. She was vaulting in a team in Munich called Ingelsberg and me in Cologne. Our teams were competing against each other and there was a little forbidden love between me and her going on. 

When Julia and I dated she was very shy, fragile and sensitive. Also, because she had a very destructive relationship going on with her much older coach, Alexander Hartl who probably groomed her. When we were young, she called me, and we had this very long talk on the phone where the parents became very angry. One time, her father interrupted us and all of a sudden her alter ego switched. She was screaming at him in a very harsh dialect like a Bavarian witch with a Dirndl, and it scared me. When Julia became a commentator for soccer, the toxic male environment made her harsh. Every time we talked about soccer she became ignorant. That's why we detached. When I see her on TV now, I am always scared that she will start jelling at her father and I have a flashback. This is why I turn the TV immediately off when she shows up on the TV screen. It feels like torture watching this state TV already. Julia invested a lot of money in a speech coach. In comparison to other female sports commentators, her voice is not in the stomach. It seems like she still wants to show the soccer players that she is a tough girl and I hear it in her voice. It is very interesting how a voice and a face appearance on TV becomes a trigger. 

Somehow, I feel that KI wants to tell me that the name Julia is lost. Mostly because the mother of the children of my brother is called Julia Wied. They split, and my brother had to move out of their family house. Jullia Wied speaks the dialect of the Düsseldorfer basketball community, which seems similarly ignorant like the soccer. She would never dare to contact me. What is your story with a triggering frequency and the name Julia.