Loretta Pipeline

My story with the name Loretta is also a hybrid between two people. The first Loretta I was close to was my Cousin Loretta von der Tann, who belongs to the Haniel tribe. Loretta is also a middle child and works as an engineer on water pipelines .Her family also represents my image of Berlin because she grew up here. When I visited Loretta and Berlin the first time in 1995, we became very close. In 1998, I told her something I did not tell anyone, and I am not sure how much it traumatized her. It was a time when the movie Jim Carroll was released and somehow had an influence on young gay people. That time, I hooked up with two old men at the Düsseldorf Main station and had sex for money. I think this moment detached her from me. When we were kids, we made a pack that we would back each other up if we would not find marriage at forty. At Cupertino Monta Vista High school, I met a Korean girl also called Loretta Lee. We got along very well but were both struggling with ADHD. In 2002, I revisited Cupertino and my host sister and Loretta became friends. My host sister is half Japanese and, because of trauma, this connection between Japanese and Korean is a conflict. Loretta was pretty well accepted in the Japanese community because of her digital skills. She made my first E-mail address  fabiankongeter@yahoo.de and this is why she is the one who opened the Pandora of my digital labyrinth. When I was starting my Google Partnership in 2015, Loretta had worked her way up into Google as a software engineer. I told her that I had a YouTube channel and she said that she would tell Sergey and Larry about it. I really thought it was a joke, since I could not categorize the names. She was working for YouTube,but then got transferred to Google to work on pipeline marketing. The tech industry is working with a project management agile technic called scrum.I just found out about this programming and slowly recover from it. Loretta and my host sister got in an fight and accident at that time.. Since then they are not speaking. I did not know anything about it, but it turned out that I sent her a little animation video at this time. It issued the problem of a middle child. The scrum technic is a very triggering work process where business and private Life are transitioning. Everything which happens in the outside world will be adapted in the software developing process. When the war in Ukraine broke out, I applied for pension. Google and the government pushed me to make a digital regression. I had already experienced regression, in my analog life, through therapy. My way back went to Loretta, and I thought she could help me with Google and the right data direction. After also being canceled on Youtube I had no interst of working with Google again. I found out that she also had been fired after the accident and is suing Google for disability discrimination. My ambivalence of not knowing if I should work with Google again or sue Google with Loretta were strong. I really wanted to get in touch with her and send my email to her Google Business account. Right to the hands of her old boss, Sergey Brin, who was probably just waiting for it. I had a strong flashback because it felt like betrayal and bringing Loretta back to her master. In her Google buisyness contract Loretta signed forced arbitration and I realized how monitored we all are. I also tried to work on pipeline marketing with this website and realized how difficult it is. Everything on the internet is a Link and a marketing pipeline. Now I try to find out what this regression means. If my fountainhead Loretta is not helping me, there is no hope. It feels like replacing Loretta with this website and stealing her story.  .What is your story with the name Loretta, signing the wrong agreements or stealing Ideas?